Some days, my mood changes without warning. I wake up feeling hopeful, but by afternoon, I’m overwhelmed, irritable, or emotionally exhausted. It took me a while to realize that the root of these mood swings isn’t the world around me it’s my own mind.
I overthink. A lot.
I replay conversations that are already over. I question decisions I made months or even years ago. I imagine outcomes that haven’t happened and may never happen. My mind treats every thought like an emergency, and I feel responsible for solving everything at once.
Overthinking slowly becomes emotional chaos. One moment I feel confident, the next I feel like I’ve failed at life. The smallest doubt turns into a spiral, and my mood follows that spiral down.
When night comes, the problem doesn’t stop it gets louder.
Instead of resting, my mind stays awake, running through “what ifs” and “should haves.” I lie in bed exhausted, but sleep feels unreachable. My body is tired, but my thoughts refuse to slow down. Some nights I fall asleep late; other nights I wake up repeatedly, restless and uneasy. Even when I sleep, it doesn’t feel like rest.
This inconsistent sleep begins to show in my days. I’m slower. Less patient. Less motivated. Things that once felt manageable now feel overwhelming. My emotions are fragile, and my energy is drained before the day even starts.
Eventually, this turns into burnout.
Burnout isn’t just being tired it’s feeling empty. It’s waking up without excitement. It’s doing things on autopilot while feeling disconnected from yourself. For me, burnout is deeply tied to the fear that I didn’t make the right choices in life.
I question my path constantly. Am I where I’m supposed to be? Did I miss better opportunities? Did I choose comfort over purpose? These thoughts weigh heavily on me, especially during quiet moments when there’s nothing to distract me.
The truth is, I don’t always have the answers. And maybe that’s what hurts the most living in the uncertainty while expecting myself to have everything figured out.
But I’m learning something slowly: overthinking doesn’t mean I’m weak. It means I care. My restlessness isn’t laziness it’s emotional overload. And burnout isn’t failure it’s a signal that something inside me needs attention, compassion, and rest.
I’m still figuring things out. I’m still learning how to quiet my mind, forgive my past choices, and trust that growth isn’t always loud or obvious. Some days are harder than others, but acknowledging this cycle is the first step toward breaking it.
Maybe I didn’t make every right choice. But maybe I’m still allowed to choose again.
We at Mentoring Minds Counsellors always believe in the FAITH that:
THERE IS ALWAYS A NEXT TIME; NOTHING REMAINS SAME FOREVER
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